After an unhappy start at university and then in the City, John Butler went out to South America to 'make the world a better place'. It wasn't so easy. Alone on a mountainside one day, an inner voice said, 'To make whole, be whole'. This was a turning point in his life. He realised that, before being able to help others, he first had to work on himself. Once back in England, he found a method of meditation which opened up a whole new way of seeing.
He has a beautiful, vulnerable style of writing about his life's experience, which I find most absorbing - almost captivating. But the whole purpose behind the book is to share the insights he has received over the many years he has been struggling to learn at least something about true prayer.' From the Foreword of the Very Reverend Daniel Joseph of the Russian Orthodox Church This book is naive in the best sense of the word. Essentially it is the reflections of an elderly man on a very full life lived in quest of God; the life itself interspersed with meditations which take the reader deeper into the doubts and illuminations which he experiences along the way. It is told with a beautiful simplicity, yet almost every page will bear re-reading.A" The Watkins Review, Summer 2009 'This is an extraordinary book by an extraordinary man, who happens to be a member of my parish in Nottingham. I have been reading it slowly since the moment when it became available, marvelling at the life experience, wisdom, and spiritual teaching that John offers us here. I highly recommend this book for its fascinating, unusual, and deeply spiritual teaching. Composed from notes, poems, and vivid insights that have been collected over the years by a remarkable man, this is a book which, with huge generosity and honesty, offers these insights to all of its readers.' Mary Cunningham, lecturer in patristic theology at Nottingham University, Published in The Messenger - journal of the Orthodox Church of Russian Origin, in England